One day old

Yesterday Natey and I met my girlfriend for lunch and after a very delicious lunch we headed back home in traffic for 40 minutes of mommy singing (nonstop!) You are my Sunshine (it soothes Nathan in any situation), I rushed inside to put my baby to bed as soon as we arrived. While nursing him my eyes watered as I relaxed and caressed him, kissed him, and gently ran my fingers up and down his arms. Never had I imagined how much I was going to be able to love a little person that makes me work harder than I ever have around the clock, smiles when I’m upset (he is getting his bottom teeth and thinks it’s funny to bite my nipple), and purposely throws toys so he can watch me pick them up.

Nursing is such a touchy subject with a lot of moms, they either love it or hate it. I’ve only met a handful of moms that don’t feel one way or another. First of all, it’s quite difficult when you think about it. If you’re exclusively nursing, you can’t go far without your baby (you gotta feed him) or your pump (you gotta keep your freezer nice and full). You can’t wear any of your nice clothes because you will surely leak and stain it (I’ve done it a dozen times!) and or worse, you’ll get weird stares when your boobs go off like faucets and all you can do is put your finger on your nipple, apply pressure and hope it stops (I’ve also been a victim of this). Yes, there are products you can use like reusable organic bamboo pads, or  throw away pads, but one day you’ll be so tired you forget to put them on and BAMM! it happens. It’s all pretty funny now, and kinda sad it still happens to me, but I love it.

Not surprising, I’ve become way more relaxed as Natey and I spend more and more time together. I no longer panic at his first cough, I don’t stay up looking at the monitor to make sure he is still breathing at night, and I don’t run at the first sound of his cry. He knows I’ll come when he really needs me and I’m more than happy to supply milk, hugs and kisses as I know one day he will probably be too ‘old’ to kiss his momma. I love nursing. It’s the time I allot to Natey and no one else. Our one on one time. And although he thinks he is getting mommy time, I’m actually the lucky one that gets to nourish my baby all day and all night 🙂

Good night.