come from my nightly routine. The truth is I love scrolling through the pictures of my warrior princess every night before I go to bed. I only have a handful of them so it doesn’t take me long to scroll through them, but each one takes me to the scene in which it was taken, so I hardly ever get through more than a couple before I withdraw to my cave with God.
Her beauty is overwhelming. In the picture that hangs next to my bed, she smiles at me. I close my eyes and I can imagine her in my arms. I sing to her, like I did every day she was with me. I tell her I will love her forever, like her for always and as long as I live my baby girl she’ll be. I tell her she’s my sunshine, my one and only sunshine. And I run my fingers through every part of her soft body while inhaling her sweet baby smell.
I can still close my eyes and feel her skin against mine. I loved putting my nose against her little neck, feeling all her little baby fat. It was like a mother cat grooming her kitten. And she loved it, for a minute, and then pushed me off and gave me a loving whine.
Smiles fill my night as I run through my daughter’s short life and the sweet mother and daughter moments I was blessed enough to experience. I wish with all my heart I would have been able to grow old with Emme by my side and experienced mommy and me massages, shopping trips, vacations, teenage drama and all the hard stuff that comes with parenting but those moments were taken from both of us. BUT we got to meet one another and she made me a mother to two, amazing and sweet, children.
Thank you my sweet sweet baby.
Confessions of a Wife, Mother & Cook 